Here’s one of the many songs i have written. I record it in my room at home so the quality isn’t great. I hope you like the song, i think it’s one of my better ones and i’ll be uploading a post later talking about how i go about writing songs ecause i’d like to see how i word the process. I’d mainly like to read it back because i have no clue what happens, i sit there and play a guitar write a few lines about what mood i’m in and 3 hours later i’m listening to it back deciding if it belongs on the computer or in the bin.
aIt’s half twelve in the afternoon and i’m sitting here enjoying frasier and a cup of tea. Of course i feel like it’s ten in the morning because me and my housemate stayed up untill four in the morning playing video games. I’ve decided not to use my friends names on the internet when i talk about them to protect their privacy, however it should be pretty easy for anybody who knows me to get who i’m talking about. So tossed salads and scrambled eggs as a title, yes i can imagine there could be a few questions about the thing right? Well for those of you who don’t know, that is the theme music from the TV show frasier. I read an interview with one of my favourite comedians Dylan Moran, who mentioned Frasier was a light tv show. So i took it upon myself to find out what he actually meant so i decided to watch it a little more to find out what “Light” actually means.As far as i can see it means the show has light emotional draw to it, meaning you can easily sit down and engage with what’s happening but you can just as eaasily get up and get on with your day, not all broken up by the fact that Ross and Rachel broke up again.
Yes i know that last one was friends but i hope you get my point. I’ve always had trouble sleeping for as long as i can remember, ranging from sleeping three or four hours at night to some nights not sleeping at all. I tried to make my last girlfriend understand that it really had an impact on my life and it was hard to deal with, unfortunately i always got the distinct impression she thought i was using it as an excuse for being lazy. I’m sure i’ll get to my heartbrake eventually but i want this blog to be a little more self reflective than self punishing, of course who can tell what will happen in the future. So the trouble sleeping, i think i’m going to really try and kick it in the arse once and for all, that way i’ll be able to wake up and say good morning rather than evening. There is a strange enjoyment i had out of this insomnia of mine, i think i was attracted to having something that i alone had to deal with. Now i say it out loud it sounds really dumb, that i got tied up in this kind of alpha male idea, probably exacerbated by the fact that all my friends say i’m the gay one.
I even feel daft just for being bothered by that! still writing about it and reading it back is strangely comforting.
So a friend of mine decides to use this blog to have a way of creative release whilst being usefully self reflective. Also she had a lot of time to kill on the london trains, i find i have a lot of time on my hands because i’m unemployed not because i travel on trains. So her blog entitled “Common Busker” was a wonderful piece of writing which talked about people conforming to the daily race, something that i have never wanted to be part off. Forgive me iif this post seems self serving and self centred but i’m using it to write down the thoughts in my head that i can never talk about. My post is entitled Wood and Strings because of the one constant that i’ve always had in my life, my guitar. I started playing the guitar when i was 13 and now at 19 i can’t remember my life without it. Something about the feel of the instrument is comforting and freeing, this thing that to the untrained hand is merely a box, to me has become the one thing i always have in my life.
Before this blog gets too melodramatic, i’d like to point out i’ve had 10 friends that have stayed with me through everything, i just find we’re all seperated by life seeing as this is the time people my age make those life changing decisions. I used to think i wouldn’t worry about what everyone else in the world thought of me as long as i was honest with myself, well i’ve proven that i can’t be honest with myself so now i’m going to be honest in a way that is showcased to the world, (i’m completely aware no one may read this too but that jsut makes me laugh). Like i said before this blog is titled Wood and Strings because of the importance my instruments have in my life, it’s also because it’s the most honest thing in my life.
So those first two paragraphs alone, were simply to help me work out what i wanted out of this blog, and now i know it’s a way for me to upload honest thoughts and views about the world i’m liiving in in a way that i can read back to myself later, so either i’m going to find this a waste of time or some horrific journey of self discovery in my own living room…needless to say it was Kurt Cobain who said “i’d rather be hated for who i am than loved for someone i’m not.” So here i am trying to find out which one i am.
like i said…no drama in this blog.